I’ve done a hard reset on my spiritual path about…three times now, but there are days when it feels like I’ve pushed the button over a hundred times.
Let me explain what I mean by reset. A spiritual reset, for me, is like a video game reset – I completely stop what I’m doing, go back to the beginning of the level (as it were) and start again without using any of the things I collected along the way. No rituals, no chants, no Tanooki suit…I just start again.
(10 points to those who get the last reference there.)
Now, this isn’t to say that I forever ignore things I learned on previous paths as a rule. However, there have been times that I’ve needed to reset completely in order to grow in the way I needed to and, in those instances, I cut myself off from things I might have tolerated or actively done in a previous religious life.
Here’s an example: when I participate in public pagan events (cons, retreats, etc.) I need to opt out of participation in public ritual. This is for a couple of reasons, including direction from “on high”, but mainly stems from the fact that they tend speak to an earlier version of my religious leanings that is no longer applicable. I cannot participate, since I’ve rejected the teachings behind them. In my Wiccanoid days, I wouldn’t have blinked and would happily have joined in singing whatever goddess-centric song came along. Now? Not so much.
In the above example, I reset my path so it doesn’t include such things. Note: I’m not slagging anyone for whom it works – I’m saying that it doesn’t work for me, it has no part in my path and, therefore, there’s no point in participating.
I’m not sure if this is a me-thing, or a thing other people do/have done as well. Anyone have thoughts?