Do voices in the head equate to insanity?
(I’ve got a running theory with some fellow pagans – the gods cannot work with broken tools and so it benefits Them to speak to those of us with minds that have already been cracked open so They don’t break us during the communication process. I’ll probably discuss that in another post (or series of posts), but here’s what it boils down to – there are an awful lot of us with diagnosed mental illness (or an awful lot of us who are vocal about it) and many of us self-report hearing our deities. In addition, there’s some thought about satisfied people not searching for anything beyond what they have, and so on, and so on.)
Sorry for the Greenwood-type parenthetical there.
So, yeah, voices in the head. I’ve had to say, out loud to myself, that although I think I’ve distinguished what comes from my gods from what comes from my own grey matter, the truth is that I’ll never really know. And, I have to be okay with that; there is no proof. I need to look solely at the message and subsequent results of doing or not doing what is suggested.
In my own attempts to differentiate between my mental voice and those of my gods, here’s what I’ve learned:
– The following topics are likely my (capital- D) Depression speaking and should be rooted out and destroyed when possible:
- Anything indicating I don’t matter.
- Anything indicating that anyone or anything would be better off without me
- Anything indicating I should do something that will result in harm to myself or others of the self-injury/assault variety
- Anything indicating someone/something is out to get me
- Anything indicating I am a super special singled out person with amazing gifts
- Anything telling me to ignore a hurt, or a fear, because it will go away
– It is okay to make mistakes; they reinforce my humanity
– Not every voice in my head is from deity, BUT every voice in my head is Divine (see FlameKeeping)
– Intent counts immensely but is not the same as ends justifying means
– Ends don’t always justify means…but there are times when that’s okay
– Anything that makes me stronger was, in the end, worth it
Ultimately the sanity debate doesn’t really apply here…and that’s perfectly fine.