In retrospect, I shouldn’t have been surprised when Deity came to me as a singing aardvark.
As a rule, I tend to be skeptical about “signs” and “omens”. Seeing squirrels everywhere isn’t a sign of anything…except that I live in perfect squirrel habitat. Black vultures in a tree that hangs over the road? They’ve lived there since I was a child. Weird weather? Let’s discuss climate change! So, a Sesame Street song on repeat in my head was just another ear-worm.
(Aardvark Song – in case you don’t know it.)
For 2+ weeks, the song infiltrated my brain and sang itself hoarse at varying levels of volume every time I wasn’t actively thinking about something else. It was maddening. And, every time the song went off, I thought more about visiting the zoo.
(Aardvarks – yes, they’re adorable)
And then, I had a dream while napping.
I should probably explain here that I am a very lucid dreamer. I remember my dreams most of the time, in vivid detail. My nap dreams tend to have more significance than others; that’s when the touch of precog hits, for example.
In this dream, an aardvark appeared wearing a glittery tiara. It looked at me and asked, “What are you waiting for?” It then disappeared in a whirl of sand and wind.
I spent some time talking about it with some friends and posting about the dream online but expecting it to be just another random construct of a random brain. Then, three days later, as I was drifting off to sleep, I heard, “Oh, so you’ll ask other people who I am but NOT ME???”
I know my mental voice well – I’ve spent too much time in my own head not to know it. I’d previously communicated with Deity – in fact, I’ve been a follower of a particular netjeret for years and can tell when She is speaking to me. Her “voice” very different from my own inner monologue; timbre, pitch, and intonation are all distinct and unlike me. This speaker had yet another “voice”, unlike mine and unlike Hers.
So, cue the clue-by-four. This wasn’t a mental construct. This was real.
There’s a hand-blown glass aardvark in my shrine now to represent My Lord.